I've discovered that the imminent change from mother of young kids to mother of school children has hit me harder than I was expecting. I guess I relied on the ages of my girls for lots of different things: from somehow excusing my lack of "a real job" to making me feel (and maybe appear) younger (to others).
So now E is in preschool and will be in Kindergarten in August. S is in the 2nd Grade. I found myself in the gym today for the 1st time in over a year, completely on my own: no responsibility for anyone's care for an entire 3 1/2 hours. Wow. Bittersweet. But no excuses for skipping the gym now!
I can see my return to my gym-rat days in my future! Hell, I can see alot of things returning to my life soon! This may be better than I imagine (and will distract me from the occasional sadness I will feel about the ending of that special time of life when I was the center of the universe for 2 little girls)... c
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